Depression, a Hidden Illness

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While going through sites trying to find quotes for my daily quote, I ran across this particular quote that moved me deeply, so I wanted to share it right away rather than saving it. As one who suffers depression and a number of other mental health issues, I find people don’t understand since they can’t see it. People, unless they’ve been depressed, cannot understand what it feels like to be depressed, to feel there is no point of going on, and the like. I feel since depression is a hidden illness people tend to fear those who have it; they don’t know how to deal with something they can’t see, can’t touch, nor can they fix it easily. This feeds in the stigma that goes with having a mental health problem; you are seen as broken, flawed, unfixable, someone to be marginalized. Anyway, here is the quote:

“Sometimes,” says a fellow depressive, “I wish I was in a full body cast, with every bone in my body broken. That’s how I feel anyway. Then, maybe, people would stop minimizing my illness because they can actually see what’s wrong with me. They seem to need physical evidence.” ~ Sally Brampton, Shoot The Damn Dog: A Memoir Of Depression

Peace, love, and contentment,
Izzy

7 Comments

  1. I have been on Social Security disability since February of this year, due to my mental illnesses. When people find out I’m disabled, especially random people in the community (landlord, banker), they stare at me in disbelief. They see this young perfectly fine looking person standing before them and they just are unable to comprehend why I could possibly be disabled. They ALWAYS go on to ask me what my disability is! Such a personal question that a perfect stranger has no reason to know, but yet I always seem to feel obligated to answer them. Their reaction is usually like, “oh”. I wish I would stop feeling obligated to answer. Maybe next time I could say something like, “That is such a personal question to ask. Why do you want to know?”.

  2. Why are you battling so much not to go impatient? You keep saying you know it’s what you need and you keep writing everything you are doing to justify why you need it, yet it seems like you are almost playing a game by saying how you refuse it each time. If you really want the help you will listen to your docs if they suggest IP and do it.

    • This is something that I’ve been giving a lot of thought to over the weekend; why am I battling so hard to not go inpatient? There are far too many reasons, some logical and I’m sure some not so logical, as to why I don’t want to go inpatient for me to go into here. I’m not proud of refusing to go inpatient but if I had to use just one word to sum up why I don’t want to go inpatient it would be fear…

      I’m going to address your question(s) and my thoughts from the weekend on this topic in a post of its own.

  3. You keep mentioning that your team asks you to go inpatient and that you keep refusing, almost like you are proud that you are refusing. You list all the reasons why you need inpatient and say you believe that you do indeed need it, yet you keep saying no- maybe waiting for them to commit you? Almost like it would something to be proud of if they committed you?? If you know you need it and that’s what they are offering, then do it.

  4. This is something I’ve had issues with in the past. In one of my past relationships my partner didn’t really understand what depression was and I didn’t realize he didn’t, I occasionally forget that it’s not something everyone deals with. One day a commercial for an anti-depressant came on, the one where they say “hello hurts, wishing hurts”, etc. He dropped what he was doing, staring at the tv, then he turned to me and asked “Is that what you go through?”

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