While I don’t have dissociative identity disorder (DID), dissociative episodes are a common component of borderline personality disorder (BPD). It is also one of the many reasons people with BPD have fragmented memories of their life and have difficulties remember things from their past. Large chunks of my life are a complete blank to me.
During my last inpatient stay I was having dissociative episodes on an almost daily basis. People said I said things that I have no memory of, or food would come out of the ward kitchen with my name on it because I asked to have it saved…I have no memory of that either. Stress can make dissociative episodes happen more often and Lord knows I’ve been stressed! Not too long ago I was found out walking down the street by some neighbors at like 3am. The stopped to see if I was okay and brought me back to the house; the disturbing thing was I gave them the name Céleste instead of Izzy. Céleste was the name of one of my invisible friends growing up but this incident got me to thinking that Céleste might actually be an alternate personality. Only time and lost of therapy will tell on this front.
Peace, love, and contentment,